Yup. That's me right now. Two weeks in and I'm feeling EXACTLY the same as I was before I started the programme.
That's right - despte the wagonloads of veggies entering into my diet, I feel like I've taken 4 steps backwards this week. I know I'm not the only one - the forums and FB pages are aflutter with some participants not enjoying their weekly menues and deciding to go 'off programme' a bit. And some people are trying to find sugar-free replacements for sweet stuff despite the admonition of NO sweeteners (fruit infused, stevia, chemical sweeteners, etc) for the next three weeks.
Last week I felt 'cleaner' and 'lighter' and like I was making progress. I'm not particularly jazzed about this week's menu although I will make some of it for sure. Part of the problem is that I made an online grocery order yesterday and thought it was coming this morning. It turns out that it was scheduled for TOMORROW morning, so I got up early for nothing and have had to scramble a bit for meals for the first couple of days this week, as I'm missing the majority of the food.
Ah well. I have sausages defrosting and plenty of veggies that'll work for tonight and still be perfectly acceptable for programme fare for the moment (thanks to my meaty overshop last weekend!).
But what's really got me the most frustrated is that I'm wondering if I'm gluten sensitive. Lots of rice and veggie bread this week and I've not been at all regular (ahem) and Wed-Fri I was feeling more bloated than usual. My calves felt like they were going to pop! During Week 1 I was actually feeling GOOD and this week I have stopped, despite not going off programme once (except for dinner last night - on programme except no veggies), and it means I'm 98.5% following the programme. A bit of sugar in a couple of the ingredients isn't concerning to me as it's so little and so infrequent over the week it's hardly worth a mention.
That in itself is a huge success, I have to admit. And two weeks is generally about my limit for any changes, so I think this is part of the process as we head into Week 3 tomorrow -that's it's a permanent change, not just short-term or temporary. I'm not enjoying the cooking and prepping, although I am glad to have the food ready for during the week when I need it so it's a real challenge to get motivated most days.
My other cousin (my cousin's sister) and her two boys were here for a couple of days last week and it was really good to see them. They're lovely kids - funny, smart, fun, and I particularly like that they like what they like and are fully supported in it. My mother was terrifically unsupportive & critical of most things that we wanted to do, thought about doing, were doing, enjoyed doing, tried to enjoy doing, etc. so I'm always impressed when parents just let their kids be and support them in whatever they enjoy. The boys are creative and artistic and love drama, acting, media, etc. and went to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang while they were here. They love musicals.
The food in the house, though, was atrocious. I felt torn - half of me was enraged at the shit they were eating, the other half just wanted to attack and down a box of Cocoa Pops. I resisted doing anything about either, you'll be pleased to know, but if nothing else, this programme is showing me how much the food industry manipulates us into eating what it churns out in factories and into believing that added vitamins are healthy in sugar-laden cereals and low-fat crap. If nothing else, it is absolutely encouraging me to choose my food better.
Week 3 has some repeats from week 2, breakfast-wise, but has some broccoli detox soup in it that looks quite good, but feeling unmotivated mostly because a) I get home after 6pm most days and it takes me ages to organise my meals and, b) I'm not sure what my cousin's going to be eating again this week. She starts working from home this week, so unsure what that will do for her food wise. Again, I only shopped for me and am already almost over my monthly food budget. Good thing I get paid on the 29th! I'm going to have to boost the food budget for March again at this rate.
This week's successes:
1) No caving into cravings! I've had cheese mid-afternoon when the cravings strike and that has worked beautifully
2) Having enough to eat every day - and sometimes feeling full through dinner from lunch!
3) Encouraging & encouragement in the forums & FB pages
4) Still drinking tea without sugar but down to only about 2 cups a day because of it!
5) Sticking with the programme - I'm saying 98.5% because of the small amounts of sugar in a couple of the ingredients I've used.
1) drinking water (needs to increase a lot)!
2) playing with food that may contain gluten and seeing if I can repalce them with non-gluten items to see if that helps me feel better
3) Bloating remedy
Onwards to Week 3!