Tuesday, 28 February 2012

Random Tuesday thoughts

  • My back is still out, so I took today off work as well. However, I'm pretty sure I'm into LWOP now, so have to go back tomorrow, regardless of how I'm feeling. I saw the chiro yesterday and had a small adjustment, although I'm not sure how much good it did. It is inflamed, so ice and rest are the best things for it.
  • I'm going to take myself out for a walk today and make a stop at the local gym on my way home ('uh-oh!' I hear you say). It's literally 5 minutes away from me. These problems with my back have really concerned me, not least because I'm too young to feel so, so crappy. I've N.E.V.E.R. (!!) been sporty or active and that's the likely cause of most of the issue. I'm going to inquire about rates & if there's a group discount. The other two gyms in town offer discounts for government workers (or any group over 10 people), so these guys might too. It costs nothing to ask.
  • I also want to inquire about personal trainers. I need someone to keep me accountable for my progress. I realize that can be pricey, so this is simply a fact-finding mission at this point.
  • I'm aware that part of the problem is that I'm unhappy in my job. The fact that I'm taking time off simply because I can is not a good sign. I don't want it to degenerate to the point that it's affecting my co-workers or their feelings about me or my work, but I know that it will come to that point if something doesn't change (my attitude being one thing). I'm anxious and stressed out at work, I don't enjoy what I'm doing any more and the job search is very, very frustrating. I hate feeling stuck. There's obviously something(s) I'm NOT doing that's keeping me stuck, however, so I have to work on that. I'm great at self-sabotage, so there are plenty of things I NEED to do that I don't, because it's easier to keep going in the same direction than make changes that are hard or will hurt. Human nature, eh?
  • I already got my refund cheque for my dental appointment last week! Hurrah!
  • I'm having a hard time with my second English essay. I had trouble choosing between two topics and sent in an outline even though I wasn't "feeling" it. I've since decided to do an entirely different topic, but that's feeling only marginally better. The format is challenging me, but I was, for the most part, pleased with my mark on my first essay - B+. The instructor has said that we can revise and try for a higher mark, though, so I might just do that.
  • I'm reading some cosy mysteries by Mary Jane Maffini, a Canadian author. The character is a professional organizer and unfortunately I'm not loving them. Mostly because the dialogue is a bit...strange...(there are a lot of non-sequiturs and instances when I'm thinking "what a weird conversation") and in the second book I got entirely lost in the first chapter. One of the (main) characters is utterly flat and there are little details that don't necessarily need to be included, as they aren't contributing to the story in any way. I'm finding that incidents seem to happen a bit randomly, rather than in some sort of logical order. Does that make sense? I realize you have to throw red herrings and whatnot into mysteries to keep the reader guessing and throw them off track, but...I don't know. It's a bit hard to explain, but obviously I'm enjoying them enough that I keep reading. They're just disappointing, that's all, after reading such great ones over the past few weeks.
  • I'm thinking of what goals I can set for March: financially, personally, physically, all that good stuff. I need to do better than I did in February, which wasn't entirely a bust, but was quite eye-opening upon review...ahem! Less stringent with the savings and a stronger focus on debt busting is definitely up there. And carry on reading the blogs regularly - it's very inspiring to read others' goals and be able to share the joy when they're met.


its me, sam said...

I'd call it the February blues... I lost my s**t at work this morning for about 5 seconds, but man, it shut everyone up and they did their work without complaint... ( for a change)... Looking for work is not easy... Sometimes just having a heart to heart with your boss can help.

~Carla~ said...

My February wasn't so hot either... one book I had to read for a review I just couldn't get into. I spent WAY too much $$, etc... I think we can have a great March!! :) Good luck to you!!

Northern Living Allowance said...

@Sam - I sympathize! I've actually already had a meltdown at work, in Oct '10 (part of the reason I abandoned this blog for so long) and my supervisor is well aware that I'm gunning for a new job. I'm grateful that that I can talk to her about this sort of thing. She kept her cool as I blubbered into tissue after tissue...Hope things pick up for you!

@Carla - At least we can all commiserate together! It was a tough challenge you set, but we made it through. :) Thanks for keeping us all motivated and on track with this stuff. Let's kick March's butt!!